5!
so, after 4 miscarriages in the last year, it looks as though this one is really happening. i will be 12 weeks on sunday, and hopefully in the clear. it really doesn't seem real to me (except for the fact i feel so sick all the time), so i haven't let myself get too attached to the idea yet. i am due on jan 10, but i will schedule my c-section for earlier than that. i just feel bad that they will be born so close to the holidays. emily really wants a little sister, and she keeps saying "when my sister gets here...." ryan wants a brother, but i really don't think he cares too much about it. darrel wants a boy too. i would like a girl because my sister is having a girl in sept, and because i love all of emily's old clothes. i will probably end up with a boy just because i want a girl. i guess in the end it really doesn't matter. all i really want is a healthy little baby!
